Advent is our liturgical wake-up call…

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The following is the sermon given this morning at St. John’s Episcopal Church, Northampton.

I’ve spent a lot of energy defending my soul against the early onslaught of Christmas in the marketplace.   When I was living in a monastery, all that was taken care of for me. No decorations were allowed until December 23. No Christmas music could be played in the house. Christmas came when it was time and not a minute before.

For the past two years we have kept Advent in our home. I am still troubled by the way retail robs us of the natural transitions. We can’t even eat the turkey before the red and green explosion at Big Y. But, I am much less concerned about Christmas decorations in the streets or Christmas trees on the tops of cars before the first Advent candle is lit.

Advent is really not about holding off Christmas – creating some kind of artificial waiting experience. Advent is about Christ coming and we are always waiting for that. Advent isn’t easy. It’s complex. It is rich in meaning. It points to what God has done, what God does now and to the truth that God has something wonderful in store for the world when it ends.

Advent is about our longing – the ancient human hunger for the holy, the numinous, the wholly other we call, “God.” This longing is good. It was placed in our hearts from the beginning and it moves us forward in our search. It compels us to seek, to savor and to celebrate what we know in our bones to be true – God is faithful.

Israel longed for his coming – the messiah, the anointed one. That longing shaped them as a people – made them fertile soil for Word made flesh. O, that you would rend the heavens and come down… For centuries they waited and persevered believing that the God who led them out of Egypt would send them a savior. And, God did.

In the century following the death of that messiah, the early Christian community waited again believing that the risen Christ would return at any moment in all his glory to bring the kingdom of God in its fullness. In his letter to the Corinthians, Paul is encouraging them to remain faithful – assuring them of the power of Christ’s Spirit at work in them here and now. Paul reminds them that they are not lacking in any spiritual gift – that God, through Christ, has given them power to persevere. God, Paul writes, will also strengthen you to the end. God is faithful.

Well, Christ didn’t return during Paul’s lifetime. And, 2000 years later, we continue to wait as they did and to believe the promise of his return will be fulfilled. In the meantime we live – we go about our lives believing that Christ is with us in Spirit and made manifest to us in one another, in the events of our world and in sacred solitude we call prayer.

We have lost the urgency of the apostolic age. We are busy with the work of living and rarely think about the final coming – the revelation of Christ’s glory and our homing with him in the kingdom of the living God. It’s just too much for us – too, “out there.” But in today’s gospel, Jesus tells us to keep awake.

Keep awake. Jesus gets us. He gets how easy it is for us to go back to bed – spiritually.   Sometimes staying awake is too hard, too painful. When we are awake to Christ’s presence in the world, we find him in places we would rather not go.

  • The clergy in Ferguson, MO are wide awake. They have agreed 460xto be witnesses of the pain, frustration and anger of other. They know that simply being present is a powerful gift to those who are suffering. They understand that being a witness can help some of those people to feel their grief and anger – give them a safe place to put it. The clergy in Ferguson are wide awake. They have found him here and now in anguish of their community.
  • The volunteers at the MANNA Soup Kitchen are wide awake. They unload cases of canned goods and stir pots and mop floors so that the homeless Jesus may know the comfort of a hot meal. They give him the dignity of a greeting – meet his gaze and acknowledge his humanity – his coming again in the men and women who live on our streets.o-JESUS-THE-HOMELESS-SCULPTURE-facebook

Advent – this beautiful season of waiting in wonder – is our liturgical wake-up call. We are invited to watch for Christ’s coming in our own lives – to open our hearts to the many ways in which he comes to us here within the boundaries of space and time. Christ visits us in moments that are often indescribable to others, but he visits just the same. Christ visits us in silence before dawn and at night as we walk the baby back to sleep. Christ visits us in ordinary place and in moments of extraordinary beauty and loss. Christ visits us here in the Word proclaimed and in the breaking of the bread. We tell the story again and again and proclaim: Christ has died, Christ is risen, Christ will come again.  The beauty of Advent is the joining of our longing to the mystery of Christmas – to the gift of the Son of God born in a manger. Because he came to Bethlehem, we know he will come in glory. One promise fulfilled gives hope and life to the promise that remains.

I have a book I turn to every Advent. It never fails to assure me that God is near. I’d like to end this morning by reading you the first paragraph of The Coming of God, by Maria Boulding. “If you want God, and long for union with him, yet sometimes wonder what that means or whether it can mean anything at all, you are already walking with the God who comes. It you are at times so weary and involved with the struggle of living that you have no strength even to want him, yet are still dissatisfied that you don’t, you are already keeping Advent in your life.”[i]

[i] Maria Boulding, The Coming of God [Third Edition] (Conception, MO: The Printery House, 2000) 1.

Those three words…

Slide1I have so many things for which to be grateful that I hardly know where to begin. Fortunately, three words, “Thank you, GOD,” have become part of our evening grace before meals. Those three words cover the good things that are clear as a bell in consciousness and, I hope, they cover the not-so-good things that now, by grace, I understand to be a blessing.

We’re going to friends for the meal today and I’ve got things to cook – the traditional green been casserole and the sweet potatoes. It’s been a lovely morning here – extra coffee with breakfast and lots of picture-taking of the snow-covered world we woke up to. Still, I find myself thinking of people who find it hard to be thankful today. It makes me wonder about where my gratitude really comes from.

How can we be grateful if we are still looking for a job after months of unemployment? How can we be grateful if someone we love is suffering with cancer or mental illness? How can we be grateful when soldiers wearing our uniforms spend this day in Iraq or Afghanistan or some other part of the world? How can we be grateful when there is real anguish in Ferguson, Missouri, in our cities and in our hearts?

I think we are able to access gratitude because of our faith.  Gratitude is the posture of the Christian life.  The gift of Jesus Christ – knowing his story, believing in the mysteries we need not prove, trusting that the promise of God’s abiding love revealed in his life, death and resurrection point to a Love beyond our imagining – this is the source of our gratitude.  This is how we can say, “Thank you, GOD” – even when life hurts and loss seems to outweigh love in our lives.  I’m praying for all those who find those three words too hard to say – those who are longing for a tangible sign of God’s love – here, now.  Pray with me and when the holiday meal is over, let’s get back to mission.

“Christ has no body now on earth but yours, no hands but yours, no feet but yours, Yours are the eyes through which to look out Christ’s compassion to the world. Yours are the feet with which he is to go about doing good; Yours are the hands with which he is to bless men now.” ~ Teresa of Avila

Blessings and love to you all…

Vicki

 

Singing into the storm…

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It’s so very quiet here today.  Our upstairs neighbor is away for a few days.  The storm has taken over the day outside but it is silent except for the occasional plow or dirt truck.  Sitting by the window with the Word, a sound – small yet clear – took me from my reading.  It was a bird – one lone bird singing in the blizzard.  For a minute I wondered if it was real or if I wished it to be so.  Up here, when the snow dumps from the heavens, the creatures tend to lay low until the storm passes.  We don’t usually hear much outside until it’s all over.  But this little bird sang anyway – even as the bitter cold winds rocked the branches.

Jesus gave us so many images for the reign of God – salt, light, yeast, etc.  These metaphors help us to plumb the depths of Mystery and to see ourselves as part of something great and glorious.  As I listened to that small, brave voice piercing the blanket of snow, an insight came.  Following Christ in the world is never easy.  Life happens to all of us and in it there is some suffering and some joy.  Real disciples keep proclaiming God’s goodness – like little birds that sing into the storm.  The song is too important to keep it to ourselves – to wait until it is easier to sing.  The great spiritual says more than I could ever say.

“I sing because I’m happy.  I sing because I’m free.  His eye is on the sparrow and I know He watches me.”[1]

Blessings and love to you all…

Vicki


[1] Civilla D. Martin, “His Eye is On the Sparrow,” 1905

From a Jersey girl…

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I am, as many of you know, from the great state of New Jersey.  [OK, maybe this isn’t the week to blow that horn!]  Jersey has always gotten a “bad rap.”  I think most people from NJ get used to the jokes.   I do think, “What exit?” could be jettisoned from the national treasure trove of at-your-expense humor.  The truth about NJ is that it is a wonderful place to grow up.  It has great, old cities like Newark, Patterson, Jersey City, Bayonne and Trenton in which our many immigrants settled and made life-sustaining neighborhoods.  New Jersey has “the shore” – a stretch of Atlantic coastline where generations of families have enjoyed leisure and sport.  There are farms – especially in the southern part of the state – where blueberries, sweet corn and Beefsteak tomatoes grow to perfection.  There are rolling hills and mountains in the northern part of the state where I was raised – land that once belonged to Native Americans – the Lenape and the Ramapough.

In spite of the beauty, the history of struggle and success, the rich inheritance of many cultures and peoples, the great state of New Jersey gets “heckled” by the nation.  [Yes, I admit that my home state may have had more than its share of corruption, crime and intrigue.  The week isn’t over yet so stay tuned to MSNBC or FOX, depending on your politics.]  But I have never let being from NJ be anything but a gift in my life.  I always thought of my home as a well-kept secret.  “If America only knew,” I thought to myself.

In the gospel of John we have a unique parallel in the call of Nathanael.  Philip rushes to Nathanael to tell him that he has found the messiah – the anointed of God.  When Nathanael gets the details, he mutters, Nazareth?  Can anything good come out of there?  Before he even meets Jesus Nathanael thinks he knows the score.  Nazareth must have been a lot like New Jersey.  Fortunately, for him, Jesus rather enjoys Nathanael’s honesty.  His lack of guile makes him good material for discipleship.  Jesus sees to the heart of him – as Christ does with each of us.

The risen Lord cares not at all from where we come.  Jesus Christ cares only where we are going.  If we are following in his footsteps, the rest is grace.  That is both liberating and frightening.  As Fr. Richard Rohr points out, “The true Gospel is a path of descent, and not ascent.  It is totally amazing we could miss this message given the rejection, betrayal, passion and crucifixion of Jesus as our primary and central template for redemption.”[1]  Only in the light of resurrection can we “make sense” of our lives.  Only by embracing his story as our own will we be able to ride the wave of suffering that enters every life and remain whole in Christ.  We might adjust our expectations to reflect a different measure of success.

–       How well have I loved today?

–       Who needs my forgiveness?

–       Was there a leper I could have touched?

–       Did I miss an opportunity for mercy?

–       How can I embrace failure?

–       How can my pain/suffering/loss/vulnerability draw me closer to the One who paved this way?

–       How can my life, as a Christian, make a difference to anyone other than me?

These are pretty good questions for me to sit with this morning. I suspect the people of the world see Nazareth a bit differently now after Jesus.  I hope when my journey is done the Newark Star Ledger will say, “Local girl makes good.”  Let’s all go out there today and “make good” – for Christ’s sake and for our own.

Blessings and love to you all…

Vicki


[1] Richard Rohr, OFM “Yes, and…” Daily Meditations (Cincinnati, OH: Franciscan Media, 2013.) 299-300.

“Make the people sit down”…

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I love the twelve apostles!  These guys fumble and stumble yet shine like stars in the night.  Their genuine love for Jesus is always balanced by a tendency to underestimate his power.  Fromm a literary perspective their spiritual learning curve is always functional.  It sets the stage for something wonderful to happen.  Let’s take Philipp and Andrew in John’s version of the feeding of the five thousand.  You’ve got to love Philipp.  When Jesus asks where they could buy some food for the crowd, his response is totally pragmatic.  Philip answered him, ‘Six months’ wages* would not buy enough bread for each of them to get a little.’[1]  But Andrew, the rarely heard from brother of Peter, gives Jesus the information he needs even though he, too, has concerns.  ‘There is a boy here who has five barley loaves and two fish. But what are they among so many people?’   Andrew’s little bit of faith is all the Lord needs.  Jesus next command stirs my imagination.  “Make the people sit down.”  Make the people sit down?  Hmmm… From Philipp’s practical perspective, I can understand the order.  It’s time to eat so folks need to circle-up and find a patch of grass.  Still, might there be something more here for us?  For very human beings who, by baptism, participate in the ministry of the Church?  Could it be that something of the essence of ministry is revealed here?

Before the blessing and the act of God through Christ, the apostles have a job.  Make the people sit down.  It’s so easy to focus on the feeding – on the miracle itself and our mandate to give what we have to the Lord’s service.  The subtle preparation for the gracious wonder can be overlooked by the spectacle.  There is a message here for all who engage in any kind of ministry – formal and informal.  As servants of the Lord we are on the “inside.”  We know that God is doing something wonderful – something for our blessing.  Part of our mission as disciples is to prepare the people – to open the eyes of the world to the workings of grace.  Like Andrew, Philipp and the rest, we need to make the people sit down – help our brothers and sisters to be present and open to the voice of God in their lives and in our world. Preparation of the heart is essential to be really tuned in to what God is doing.  Our lives should model something different from the world – a stance of receptivity, a readiness for God.

Jesus’ command in this gospel is often overshadowed by his Eucharistic action.  But hearing it anew this morning, it’s hard not to think of the Sunday assembly – the pews or chairs filled for the reception of a miraculous feast of Word and wheat.  The very act of our worship takes us from the action and busyness of “normal” life and invites us to be still in the Presence for an hour or so.  It is most certainly the work of the ordained to make use of this sacred time and space, but it is also the mission of every Christian to point to the power and activity of God in creation, in family life, in work and service to the poor.  It is the mission of all the baptized to make the people sit down and take notice.  God is doing something wonderful and we all have a front row seat!

Blessings and love to you all…

Vicki


[1] John 6:1-14

a “happy” New Year…

Screen Shot 2013-12-31 at 10.25.10 AMAround the world people are getting ready to celebrate the calendar shift.  After 365 days of spinning around the sun, the people of this planet will exclaim, “Happy New Year!”  We romanticize this night in America.  Having some place to go is not nearly as important as having some one with whom to go.  Movies like, “When Harry Met Sally,” illustrate the point.  Harry Connick, Jr.’s cover of “What Are You Doing New Year’s Eve?”  pours more salt in the wound of human loneliness.  This definition of a “happy” New Year excludes and saddens.  There has to be something more here – something deeper that all people can celebrate.

I found a “Wordle” online this morning composed of things that make up a “Happy New Year.”  I found it lacking as it extolled money and success.  I decided to make one of my own – my own wishes for you, dear reader, this New Year’s Eve.  I filled it with good things – the things, for which we all long, things that speak to the wonder and beauty of being human.  I hope you can feel my gratitude and love for your company this past year.  It has been a year for the record books on my end!  So much change…challenge and gift! Thank you for sharing your year with me – for popping in and out of my inner life.  I’ve been doing quite a lot of thinking about digital ministry.  Although I have met many of you, some of you have never laid eyes on me.  It is a wonder that we are, regardless, connected.  I don’t think I could write just for myself.  Without companions on the journey, my thoughts and struggles would remain locked in my head or stuck on my heart.  Know that I am grateful for all of you who have remained with me and for those who have joined “godisalwaysmore” along the way.

Love, grace and peace…

Vicki

Make ready my soul…

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This Advent feels different somehow – like there is some new fragment of truth dangling just beyond my reach.  I find myself straining as if to hear some whisper in the winter cold.  I stare at the trees behind our house with their barren arms extended. They are reaching for something, too, I think.  Although I have all my Advent resources in a neat little pile – new booklets from wise and holy people to enrich my prayer – there is something more for which I am longing – some inexplicable reality that feels close but just beyond my reach.  It isn’t just Christmas.  Christmas will come no matter what.  I am longing and all I know is that the longing must be a gift.  It must be for my blessing.

As I reread some old Advent blogs, I noticed a thematic trend – a theological premise, really.  Advent makes all waiting holy.  I want to walk that one back a bit.  All waiting isn’t the same.  Waiting for a cup of coffee is qualitatively not the same as waiting for bottled water after a hurricane.  Waiting for the next available operator is not the same as waiting for a son or daughter to finish a tour of duty in Afghanistan.  Waiting for a tax refund is not the same as waiting for biopsy results.   It’s just not.  I’m not sure why making this distinction feels so important.  I guess the degree to which I find myself longing this Advent feels very different – as if the Advents past were practice for a varsity game.

It is in our deepest longings that our need for God becomes evident.  When we are sated – spiritually, physically, emotionally – the sacred void in us that can only be filled by God seems, well, a little less empty.  The times of interior plenty are a gift to be sure, but, when we ache for something beyond ourselves – some new knowing, a clear, purposeful direction, a way to move forward – then, we give God the chance to be God.  Sometimes, with all my plans and dreams, I forget that each day should be lived as if it were my last.  I forget that prayer isn’t to move God’s heart but as C.S. Lewis suggested, to reorder my own.  I forget that fear and worry are the spiritual equivalent of a flat tire!  I’ve decided to welcome this longing.  Instead of seeking relief in “practical” solutions, I am embracing the dis-ease.  Yes, something’s coming…and in this holy season I have permission to just be and make ready my soul.

With all we are, we wait for God, the Lord, our help, our shield.

Our hearts find joy in the Lord; we trust God’s holy name.

Love us Lord! We wait for you.[1]

 

Peace and love to you all…

Vicki


[1] The International Committee on English in the Liturgy, The Psalter (Chicago, IL: Liturgy Training Publications, 1995) Psalm 33:20-22.

“More than a feelin’…”

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Hope.  The great poet, Emily Dickinson, wrote:

 “Hope” is the thing with feathers –

That perches in the soul –

And sings the tune without the words –

And never stops – at all[1]

We readily say to one another, “Don’t give up hope.”  Yet, we rarely talk about what that really means.  We “hope” for certain things to happen – specific tangible things.  But the kind of hope I’m pondering just is – it runs beneath the surface of our lives and surges to the surface as God’s remedy for despair.  Christian hope has, at its core, the truth of the paschal mystery – that God is with us in life, in suffering, in death and beyond.  We don’t need to tap into hope when we are on top of the world.  We become most conscious of the power of hope in our lives when things aren’t going quite so well. Hope moves us beyond ourselves and into the reality of God’s love for us.  It enables human beings to live as if everything will be ok.  It will because of Christ.

Hope gives joy to the poor whom we think possess so little. Hope gives courage to dying – shores up their faith for the journey ahead. Hope carries the grieving  – teaches the widow and orphan to laugh again. Hope moves us to give when others have lost everything – helps us to perceive our profound interconnectedness half a world away. Hope infuses the soul when we least expect it and need it the most.

I feel hopeful today.  It’s more than a feeling.  I know it is pure grace.  I know it is a gift.

Faith, hope and love to you all…

Vicki


[1] The Poems of Emily Dickinson Edited by R. W. Franklin (Harvard University Press, 1999)

 

 

 

 

Closer than we think…

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There was a play on Broadway called, “Six Degrees of Separation.”  It was about a young man who pretended to belong at a gathering because he knew someone who knew someone who knew someone else, etc., who actually knew the hosts.  The uncomfortable drama was based on the premise that we are all just six people away from anyone – that if we comb our contacts, we will reach the heights of power or fame.  Today the Church celebrates St. Luke the evangelist.  Luke never met Jesus.  Luke knew St. Paul.  St. Paul knew St. Peter and the apostles.  [More importantly, Paul knew the risen Christ!]  So, Luke heard the story from Paul who knew the Lord but needed to learn the story from Peter.  Confused? Don’t be.  It gets better!

Luke is the writer of two texts: the eponymous gospel and the Acts of the Apostles.  Luke lived the Acts.  A Syrian physician who embraced the Good News, Luke set about with Paul on his mission to the Gentiles.  Beyond Paul’s martyrdom in Rome, we hear nothing of Luke.  It is believed that he died an old man after writing both volumes.   So, when you look at Luke’s life, it would seem that the second book is really the first.  The gospel he writes after knowing Paul and, most definitely, reading Mark, can be considered a “prequel.”  But what really excites me is his proximity to Jesus.  Depending on your appreciation of the theophany on the road to Damascus, it is just three or four degrees!  Reading the gospel today it occurred to me that we, too, are that close to Jesus.

The story we read on this feast, takes us back to the beginning of Jesus’ ministry.  At home in Nazareth, he goes to the synagogue on the Sabbath – as was the tradition.  Jesus is given the honor of reading from the scroll of the prophet, Isaiah.

He unrolled the scroll and found the place where it was written:

‘The Spirit of the Lord is upon me,

because he has anointed me

to bring good news to the poor.

He has sent me to proclaim release to the captives

and recovery of sight to the blind,

to let the oppressed go free,

to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”

And he rolled up the scroll, gave it back to the attendant, and sat down. The eyes of all in the synagogue were fixed on him. Then he began to say to them, “Today this scripture has been fulfilled in your hearing.”[1]

Luke’s preference for the anawim – the poor and marginalized – shines through here in Jesus’ selection of the text.  If you recall what happens next, it’s not good.  At first they are deeply awed by his gracious words.  Then, the gathering becomes outraged and hostile.  “Fulfilled in our hearing?”  “Who does he think he is?”   “We know this guy.  We know his family.”  “Blasphemy!”  Jesus miraculously escapes them before the mob can throw him off a cliff. The human drama here can obstruct the deeper message:  Jesus is the fulfillment of the promises.  In his person the very Word of God has taken flesh.  Through the proclamation of his Gospel, we can experience the risen Lord – not physically as Saul on the road to Damascus, but spiritually.  Every time the Gospel is read on Sunday, He is with us.  God used the apostles and evangelists to tell the story of our salvation – to take the truth of self-giving love and make it accessible to all people in every time and place.  When we stand for the Gospel and hear the priest proclaim it and break it open for us in the sermon, we have an opportunity to encounter the living Word in our midst.  In our hearing, that Word can find fulfillment.  Thanks to Luke and Mark, Matthew and John, we can tell the story in every generation.  We can experience the power of the resurrection and harness that loving energy to bless one another – to heal the wounds of the world.  Luke, in this pericope, sets the tone for his social justice gospel. And we are missioned to follow Jesus in proclaiming good news to the poor – not with words – with the way we choose to live in the world.   It’s easy to say that we are 2000 years away from the resurrection – from the miracles, the healings and the sufferings of the early church.  But we have the gospel of Jesus Christ.  Like Luke, we are not as far away as we think!

Happy feast…peace, grace and love,

Vicki


[1] Luke 4:14-21, RCL [Revised Common Lectionary]

God has her…

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We went to Sunday Eucharist with my Dad.  The priest was in the midst of his sermon when a woman three rows behind us had a stroke.  “Is anyone here a doctor?” a woman in that pew shouted.  Father stopped preaching and a man singing in the choir moved quickly to the woman who sat staring blankly ahead.  She made a low unintelligible moan and then they helped her to lie down.  The doctor from the choir called 911 and we all heard every word.  Many sat in stunned silence transfixed by the surreal scene.  The three of us joined the majority who did not watch.  We lowered our heads and began to pray.  There was a great silence.  No one spoke.  Even the babies were hushed.  After about 5 minutes the choir began to sing softly, “Jesus, Jesus, beautiful savior, heal us, hold us, and help us find rest.”  We sang this mantra for a long time – maybe 10 minutes before the ambulance arrived.  The prayer continued as the EMS personnel took vitals and moved the woman’s body on to the gurney and out the side door.

I have spent a good deal of my adult life looking for God.  I have felt God come near many times.  It happened often when I was in the monastery and we were at prayer.  It happened several times when I was a student chaplain in a hospital.  Now that I am married, there are moments when God breaks through in the space we call, “us.”  And there have been moments – rare and fleeting encounters in my private prayer – that have felt “full” of God.  Yet, what happened on Sunday was different from all of it.  It’s as if we all felt it as we prayed for the sick one in our midst.  The Presence enveloped us all as we used our love to heal and to bless.  Like Moses come down from Sinai aglow with God, we looked at one another as we left the church – aware that something extraordinary happened in our prayer together.

We’ve been traveling for three days back from SC.  This moment of communion has stayed with me – a blessed assurance of God’s power in our lives.  Perhaps, the greatest gift of this experience is the certainty that we are connected to one another.  We look like separate beings.  We have flesh and bone that seem to contain “us.”  But we are capable of moving out of ourselves for the good of the other.  When we pray we can transcend the boundaries of our bodies – move from isolation to community with the assent of our will.  We can live now as we will live in glory – one Body in Christ.

I am still praying for the woman who fell ill in our midst – and for her family.  Yet, no matter what happens to her, I know God has her.  And, if God has her, God has you and me, too.

Grace, peace and love to you all…

Vicki